Fair warning. This may be a long confusing post.

Today was going to be an awesome day. I had a really good idea for a new script I want to write. My brain was working overtime coming up with ideas. I get to work pumped and ready to jot down these ideas. I opened my wordpad and inserted a ‘-’ and that’s all that got done. Not because I lost my train of thought. It was because a customer needed something (god forbid). Then all of a sudden all my customers needed attention right there and then. So I was on the phone from 8 in the morning to 5. I haven’t been on the phone that much since I started Tivoli, 8 years ago. On top of that I ended my work day meeting with a member of my team to discuss some things. It had to due with various little things that needed to be said. But all in all it was not the day I wanted. I left the office at 6 and all of my creative juices were gone. damn job…err wait I didn’t say that. Another nice little gem about job stuff came out today. Awesome Day!

About 30 minutes ago, Alev was like “Did you hear about those girls who lured another girl into a house. Then beat the shit out of her and videotaped it.” All because they wanted to create a viral video. Check the link: http://www.wftv.com/video/15817645/index.html

More details here: http://www.wftv.com/news/15817394/detail.html#

Makes me ill. There have been a few events of late that really make me question things. One day I hope to have some kids. But I wonder what it’s going to be like when they’re teenagers. Are they going have to worry about being invited over to someones house in fear of what’s behind the door. Or worry about some weak minded kid coming into school with a gun and spraying it. I’m not that old but I can definitely see a difference in when I was kid and the ones today. The majority of kids today are just a bunch of weak minded assholes. I could offer my thoughts on why that is but that is a whole other topic. I just hope when I have a kid they grow up to be a good person. That’s all. I don’t care if you don’t go to college or they get pregnant as a teenager. Just be a good person and treat people with respect. We’re currently in short supply of them.

So like I started, sigh…ugh…

That sums up my day. So I don’t leave things off on a depressing note, check out this video.

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“If you wanna mess with me, I think you probably can, because I’m not confident and I’m weak for a man”

I just finished reading Into the Wild by Jon Krakauer. The book is about Christopher McCandless, a 24-year-old honors graduate, star athlete, and beloved brother and son from a wealthy but dysfunctional East Coast family. After graduating from Emory University in 1990 he ceased communicating with his family, gave away his savings of $24,000 to OXFAM and began living the life of a wanderer. His travels took him to Arizona, South Dakota, California, and Nevada. Eventually he ended up in Alaska to carry out his dream of living off the land, far away from civilization. After 4 months of living off the land, Chris died of starvation in an abandoned bus used by Hunters for shelter.

After finishing the book I was unable to get to sleep. I’m not sure if it was because of the unanswered questions I had or the emotions I was feeling. Whatever was the cause I know that I have never read a book and had it affect me like this one has. The book itself wasn’t great, Jon Krauker did a great job in his research but I think it was poorly put together. It was Chris McCandless’s story that had such an impact on me. I feel I can relate to Chris in some ways. Not that I want or would abandon everything to go live off the land. It has to do with hoping that there is more to life than careers, paying bills, and being full of what ifs.

Everyone seems to have an opinion of Chris McCandless and his action in the Alaska bush. No matter what those opinions of him are, I think you have to appreciate that he was able to follow his dream. Even if it was to the extreme I’m sure he died not regretting the journey he had taken. The majority of us will probably spend the rest of our lives asking “What if I had…”. I don’t want to wake up one day wishing I would have done more or realizing I let my fear of the unknowing make decisions for me.

Here are some pictures I found of McCandless and related areas around the web: